What do you say of taking chances?

Tadi sore gw baru abis nonton Celine: Through The Eyes of The World

 

Dan gw cuma bisa bilang: A-M-A-Z-I-N-G.

Gw bukan salah seorang fans berat Celine Dion. Selama ini gw cuma menganggap dia sebagai salah satu penyanyi yg kelasnya jauh lebih elegan dan talentanya luar biasa. Tapi, setelah nonton film ini, gw bener2 angkat jempol buat dia. Karena Celine bener2 seorang Diva sejati!

She is totally gorgeous, extraordinary and a really humble person.

Melihat perjalanan turnya keliling dunia bener2 membuka mata kalo dunia tuh bener2 luas dan kita, manusia, ga akan pernah bisa tau semua hal, mengalami semua hal, dan melihat semua hal di dalam dunia. Ketika dia ketemu sama banyak orang, entah itu fans beratnya, Presiden Perancis, atau orang2 terdekatnya, dia selalu humble, ga jadi sok ngartis, dan ga takut jelek. She is just being herself and she always do whatever she can to make all people happy.

The funny thing is, seminggu terakhir ini di dalam otak gw lagi ada satu lagu yg terngiang2 terus. Gw tau nadanya tapi ga tau judul lagu ato penyanyinya siapa. Dan pas tadi gw lagi ntn Celine, salah satu background songnya itu lagu yg ada di dalam kepala gw, which means it's one of Celine's songs.

Penasaran setengah mati, pulang rumah gw langsung googl-ing lagu itu. Dan ternyata lagu itu judulnya 'Taking Chances - Celine Dion'. *stunned*

Kenapa gw sampe jadi stunned? Soalnya lagunya sumpah inspirational banget. Entah kenapa, tuh lagu kyk lagi menggambarkan feeling gw akhir2 ini. Well, gw bukannya bermaksud jadi hiperbola, tapi kenyataannya emg kebetulan aja di otak gw terngiang2 lagu Celine seminggu terakhir ini, dan kmrn gw tiba2 impulse pengen ntn film Celine. 

So, I dunno what else I can say except that I'm getting really really motivated & inspired by all changes happened around me, including Celine's stories.

Regardless it's really a sign for me or just simply a coincidence, I'd rather believe that 'There is no accident in this world' (as well as coincidence).

So, What do you say if I'm taking chances?

Change or Not Change?

Perubahan ada supaya manusia bisa bergerak dan terus maju.

Percaya atau ngga, suka ga suka, terima atau ngga, kita harus bisa menerima perubahan dalam hidup.

Entah dalam skala besar atau kecil, perubahan pada awalnya mungkin tidak menyenangkan. Tapi, sekali kita, manusia, bisa menerima dan mengikuti pergerakan dalam perubahan, percaya deh. Hidupmu akan jauh lebih menyenangkan.

Hah! Sok filosofis banget gw hari ini. Sebenernya bukan hari ini yg membawa pikiran gw ke arah perubahan. Lebih tepatnya, beberapa hari terakhir ini, gw dihadapkan dengan banyak perubahan yang (mungkin) akan terjadi di dalam hidup gw.

1. Si Dia akan pergi.

Orang terdekat gw bakal pergi alias pindah rumah. Sedih? Ngga juga, soalnya pindahnya ga jauh2 amat hehe.. Tapi, perubahan yg bakal dialami oleh dia (lebih tepatnya) ternyata akan membawa dampak yg cukup signifikan buat hidup gw. Soalnya gw sering nongkrong di rumahnya khususnya kalo lagi ga ada kerjaan pas weekend.

2. Confidence brings me to the sky

Kepercayaan diri ga membuat manusia menjadi congkak, tapi kepercayaan diri justru membuat manusia bisa jadi apa aja yang dia mau. Dan gw baru aja membuktikan hal itu. Gw percaya gw pantes mendapatkan yang terbaik. Dengan usaha terbaik gw, akhirnya jalan menuju hasil terbaik terbuka juga. Pada saatnya nanti, gw bakal cerita lebih lengkap. Untuk saat ini, cukup percaya aja kalo kita bisa menjadi apapun yg kita inginkan (bahkan utk jadi artis sinetron atau secantik Sandra Dewi sekalipun).

3. When they are changed, I must be changed

Kali ini bukan tentang gw, melainkan tentang mereka. Yg gw maksud di sini itu adalah sebuah komunitas yang akan menjalani sebuah perubahan radikal dalam waktu dekat ini. Efeknya ke gw sebenernya udah ga ada, tapi secara gw dulu pernah aktif di dalamnya, gw bisa merasakan perubahan ini akan membawa dampak yg amat sangat besar buat org2 yang ada di dalam komunitas tersebut. Banyak yg kecewa sama perubahan yg akan terjadi, tapi gw yakin, kalo ga ada perubahan, siapa pun ga akan bisa maju.

4. Someone new & something new in The Family

Percaya deh. Kelahiran seorang anak mengubah segalanya. Hidup kedua orangtuanya ga akan pernah sama lagi. Dan begitu juga dengan hidup salah seorang tantenya. Yup. Ga perlu pake logika buat ngebuktiinya, kedatangan seorang manusia baru di dalam dunia gw telah mengubah kehidupan orang2 dewasa di sekitarnya Contohnya dengan mobil baru, baju baru, dan semangat baru. Pernah denger kan, kalo kita lagi berada di dalam lingkup org2 muda, kita jadi ngerasa lebih muda, energetik, dan bersemangat lagi?

5. Be aspired and decided. Thanks to Andrea Hirata.

Kalo yg pernah baca buku 'Laskar Pelangi' karya Andrea Hirata, mgkn masih inget sama ceritanya yang berdasarkan pengalaman hidup si Andrea yg sebenernya. Masih inget juga pasti kalo dia yg dulunya sekolah di sebuah sekolah miskin dan lusuh, punya cita2 tinggi pengen sekolah ke Perancis. Dengan tekad kuat yg dipegang terus sampai beranjak dewasa, akhirnya membawa dia bener2 ngeliat Eiffel Tower dengan mata kepala sendiri. Dari sini, gw percaya dan yakin banget kalo 'Nothing is impossible'. Dan pertanyaannya sekarang, apakah kita mau membuat sesuatu yang ga mungkin jadi mungkin? Coz I do.

I know I might sound boring, lame and this topic is totally not interesting. Tapi, bukan itu yg mau gw sampein di sini. Mungkin banyak di antara orang2 seumuran gw yg ngerasa mikirin hidup tuh belum penting. Yg penting enjoy aja dulu. Well, I'm sorry that I'm not like the other peers. I didn't say that I'm a better person. It's just, sometimes you do really need to think what is the value of your life? Is your life meaningful afterall? Have you got what you are looking for in this world?

Coz I haven't got it. I'm still looking for it and I'm sure I'll find it someday.

Keep Learning & Be Awesome!

Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentine's Day on 14th February 2010.

May everyone of you be wealthy, healthy & prosperous in this Tiger year and of course, may everyone be fulfilled with love & care.          

Ok guys, berhubung terbatasnya waktu dan tempat yg gw punya sekarang, gw langsung aja summarize apa yg terjadi dalam hidup gw akhir2 ini:

1. Setelah mendapatkan homesick yg amat sangat buruk, gw akhirnya tenang juga. Gw sadar kalo gw ga bisa membalikkan waktu atau pun memajukan waktu supaya dia berjalan sesuai dengan apa yang gw mau. Gw juga sadar kalo gw ga bisa 'strecthing nature' means gw ga bisa expect apa yang gw pengen langsung ada di depan mata gw. Semuanya butuh waktu, kesabaran, dan juga doa.

2. I know I might sound a bit like a child who is trying badly to get what he wants and would cry and cry if he doesn't get it eventually. Tapi gw sadar kalo gw udah gede, udah jadi orang dewasa. Bahkan sekarang udah punya keponakan, means generation gw bukan anak kecil atau anak ABG lagi. Inilah saatnya di mana gw harus bisa mikir dengan jelas ttg masa depan gw. Tentang jalan mana yg mau gw lewatin. Tentang apa yg mau gw lakukan. Dan dengan siapa aja gw mau dikelilingi di dalam hidup gw.

3. Belajar menjalani hidup sendiri dan belajar membuat keputusan dalam hidup. Pelajaran kyk gini bener2 ga gampang. Seringkali kita ngeliat diri kita di masa depan maunya jadi kyk apa. Atau, kita ngeliat kehidupan org lain yg keliatannya lebih enak dan kita pengen bgt hidup kita bakal jadi kyk hidup mereka. Dan gw juga sering ngalamin yg kyk gini. Ngerasa ga puas sama hidup sendiri, ngerasa hidup gw selalu ada yg kurang, ngerasa hidup gw kurang hepi. Padahal semuanya udah ada di depan mata gw. Cuma gw-nya yg suka kelupaan dan ga belajar dari hidup.

4. Terus belajar melupakan masa lalu dan menahan diri untuk tidak mementingkan masa depan. 'Yesterday is a history, Tomorrow is a mystery and Today is a gift. That's why it's called a Present'. Dan gw suka lupa ngebuka present gw sendiri, gw suka lupa kalo 'kado' yg ada di hadapan gw itu jauh lebih penting dr 'kado' yg udah lewat atau yg bakal dateng ke dalam hidup gw.

5. Belajar menjadi orang dewasa yg bener2 dewasa. Secara gw gampang 'panasan' apalagi kalo udah ada yg ngungkit2 masa lalu, gw skrg mulai berpikir sebelum bertindak. Apa yg gw lakuin itu bener? Apa yg gw pikirin itu worth it utk dipikirin terus menerus? Dan kenapa gw harus 'uring2an' kalo apa yg terjadi ga sesuai dengan harapan gw?

In summary, I'll never stop learning. I will keep being a student of the University of Life. Tentu aja, ga semua hal yg gw jalanin itu enak. Ada saat di mana masa lalu tiba2 dtg di hadapan gw, dan menunjukkan fakta bahwa semua yg udah terjadi ga akan terulang lagi. Tapi ada juga saat di mana gw bisa ngerasa seneng dan bebas ngelakuin apa aja dalam hidup ini, yg mengingatkan gw akan kekuatan gw bahwa gw bisa jadi apa aja yg gw mau.

And the good thing is, I have been granted with a Freedom of Life:

Kebebasan untuk hidup, berkarya, dan berjalan ke mana pun yg gw mau.

I'm really thankful especially for him and my family. You guys never say NO for whatever I've done and always say YES for whatever I wanna do.

I promise you guys I won't let you down. I will get rid of all those ex-es, grab all present-s and face all future-s coming ahead.

2010, Just see what Yenny can do with you.

She should have been awesome!

I.am.sorry.

I.am.sorry.

For my own blog. For neglecting him for so long. For not even take a peep and feed those little fish.

And it's February now!

Who wouldn't thought that time is really this fast? Noone coz this is an absolute truth that I found to be a truly totally and even primarily absolute truth.

Waallaooo..What am I talking about, heh?!

So my day has been so busy with my overcrowded mind. Thinking too much and doing too many things at the same time really can make you thinner and ill. But don't worry larr...I haven't got ill (yet).

It's just...I dunno...this last one month, I'm really squizzing my mind to think about my future, what I should do, where should I go. Too many options, too many risks, too many people's perspectives...

So, let's not talk about myself as it just can make your life more complicated only to read about my overthinking life-stories.

Now, what are people up to? 14th February is coming really really soon.

Internationally, it's a Valentine's Day. Traditionally by Chinese, it will be a Chinese New Year.

Yeahhh!!! Ang pao na laiii.....

As I just remember that I'm being the elder generation, I'm not getting really excited this time. CNY day, Money day.

Savings for the kids, Spending for the adults. And I will do the later one. Haiz..

But, no complaint larr...it should be a joyous day. So, make sure you buy new clothes, including your underwear, get haircut, nailcut, eyebrow trim, moustache trim (?!), etc.

New year has to be fresh and so do you and I, okay?!

Please Just Let Me Home

It's been a while since Joshua was born yet I have no time at all to update this blog.

Like I said before, it was pretty hectic these last two weeks and for me, I've got a very short term roommate who was my mom.

So, it was a first time for my mom coming here alone by herself while we were sharing room by just the two of us. To be honest, at first, I felt nothing like mother-and-daughter feeling about sharing after not seeing each other for quite sometime. It might be because I'm not used to talk and share with my her. The situation is when I call her and try to talk, both of us are talking and we finally end up with arguing each other. That's why I'd rather talk general things than my problems or issues I'm facing here.

But then, mother's instinct could not be eliminated. She finally knew everything as she saw what I'm doing everyday and what other people have done. I'm not going to mention the issue though, as it was quite confidential, yet, the main point is she understood what I'm feeling.

I didn't need to tell her everything, but she could figure out herself. She could see from my perspective and I was totally glad for that. Now, I can see how a mother is really care about her children and she is actually the one who can totally understand her children's feelings. And without any shame I must admit that I just discovered and experienced this motherly-instinct thing.

And now that brings me with feeling homesick just after her return to Indo last night. Since I was here, I'd never had such a feeling. I was alright before and after I came back from Indo. But yesterday I was suddenly feeling so sad. I felt that I've been left alone here while my mother has gone away. I felt like being a 5-year old girl who was afraid of being alone in the middle of a big shopping centre. I felt like I was desperately finding my mom so that I can go home with her.

I miss my home, my dad, my mom, my big sister...

I wanna go home and never come back again...

I wish I could do that...

Just let me go home...